yah chis my advise take it as you will but lay off that kratom never heard anything about it until you mentioned it, i did a quick google search and got this http://miami.cbslocal.com/2013/11/21/ne … tly-legal/
“You’ll go through an opiate type of withdrawal, where you’ll have nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, chills, and sweats,” Gannon said, “You’ll just feel like you want to die.”
but soon, Carrie said, her casual kratom use turned to full-blown addiction. She was taking kratom three times a day, spending $1,000 a month on it.
“I was scrounging for change, for food ,” Carrie said, “ Some days I would go without eating because I would rather have money for the drug.”
This sounds exactly like heroin. a little bit about me. I got sober February 2012. I started using Oxys in 07 and I had been shooting heroin since the summer of 2008 when I graduated high school. I had been in multiple rehabs, troubles with police, troubles with drug dealers, homelessness, and basically a overall junkie and all the problems that come with being a junkie. and damn it was not fun. I ended up going to a 14 month program but left after ten months. It worked for me. I am still clean but man the drug isn't worth it. whats so ever. at first you think you have control but it takes over and then you are spending your whole day scheming on how to get high so you can get your next fix. and once you get it it is a repeating cycle, and you don't really care who you rip off, what you do. its just not worth it. stick with the pot and the alcohol if you are going to do anything. and maybe the casual psychedelic but please don't start messing with the harder stuff. its a long and hard road to go down the beginnings is a whole lot of fun but the end is not at all. it is the devils drug
and this part is for you ASTRO VILLAIN- GRANTED every situation is different but when I was in my first year of sobriety it was an emotional roller coaster because I was starting to feel emotions that I hadn't felt in year due to it always being suppressed. now when you get clean you don't have any of that so it all comes and smacks you right in the fucking face. after a while it gets much better, easier, I keep myself busy with hobbies like running, biking, hiking, boxing, going to the gym which really helps for me. I am not sure if you will even read this but just keep it up. you have gone farther then most people have. and congratulations on the 11 months, I think you will be just fine.